She worried early on, already in her 20’s that is was BAD to fantasize about being married to this guy. To imagine a life with him, frockling through the buttercups (like in the sweet-sappy love scenes on TV).
A year went by before she realized that her fantasy life was still active.
He worried, at this point in his life, mid 40’s, that he hadn’t made it at all. That the early success should just pave the way for a lifetime career, that he was always just a few dingy bar sets away from a return to the spotlight. He had stopped performing for a while, but had never stopped playing.
He found himself in the mirror of his bathroom playing and looking himself in the eye. THAT’s what got him back onstage. To call up his friends who were gigging, to ask if he could get his sea legs again.TO get up a band when he could, to invest back in himself, the ONE thing he knew he was good at. To get to that penultimate song. To break their hearts. (Damn, he wishes that there was a deeper hatred in him, something bitter, so he could ATTACK his audiences-really tear them apart and break them-not just their hearts but everything-so they could see the error of their ways. But sadly for any cowboy who has more heart than he wants to admit, he doesn’t WANT to hurt anyone. All this breaking he does, he just tears apart their hearts so they will mend back together again.
And that’s what he is most proud of.
This thing he cannot articulate, but KNOWS IN THE MOMENT that this is the only thing in life he has.
This power to heal strangers.
And then they just ask for an autograph and the spell is broken.
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Dream
by the Everly Brothers
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tbU3zdAgiX8
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